It's 63rd day into 2015... An extremely late new year to everyone whom haven't gives up on my blog... And a Happy Chinese New Year greeting on the last second day before the New Year of Goat season ends.
Well, it's almost a year since I first told the girl I love, I love her... and the friendship has been deteriorating ever since... And at this moment, it came to a stage that I started getting annoyed by myself for being so annoying to her...
It used to be too many things to talk and too many laughter to share... Well, and now... my whatsapp message becomes her last message to be entertained and and reply... Maybe the last person that she ever wanted to see and speak to.... Well, I'm not sure what have I done wrong except for loving her... Anyway, hopefully all these will end soon when I felt too tired to carry on..
In October 2014, I had a climbing injury which damaged my rotator cuff on my left shoulder... It's been 5 months since... Well, the feeling is exactly the same when I injured my right shoulder about 5 years ago...
So, this year supposed to be the year I'm going to meet up with my mentor, Tony Bubb in Colorado for some big wall session I've been dreaming of since the first day I started Rock climbing. And I am still not giving up.
Meanwhile, I also picked up Scuba Diving and my Open water session will be in the first week of April. Hope everything will be fine...
And one of the major event is Pussy Key. A route in Bukit Takun(Takun Hill) around Klang Valley. In the earlier post, I've mentioned that I started teaching 2 climbers multipitches. Loon and Joc. Joc is the girl I am loving right now... And this year, will be the year of Summit Ascend. The planning was made last Saturday and the ascend will take place around mid of April. Hopefully everything will take place as planned so that I can leave for Colorado with one less thing in my mind.
And people around me started to feel that I'm being stupid and stubborn for not asking directly to Joc whether to accept me or not... And they started to judge Joc being someone whom is taking advantages out of other ppl... If any of you is reading this, but I doubt so.... I just wanna confess to you guys... "Thank you everyone for caring... Well, I know Joc is not that kind and I know what I am doing..."
I just wanna end whatever I've started. And after the Takun Summit, I will be busy preparing for my Colorado trip. And soon after that, my shoulder would have been pretty much worn out and may need a really long break before I will start climbing again something hard again... And I want to finish what I 've started a year and half ago... To guide both of them to the summit and leave no regrets for any of us... That's the reason I started Scuba Diving... At least I have something to do during the upcoming holidays...
As the days of my trip coming closer, I'm having a mixed feeling of excited and sad. I'm feeling excited because it's a trip I've been waiting for the past 10 years... At the same time, I'm feeling sad due to the fact that the day I will retire again comes closer as well... and by the time the shoulder comes into shape again, I'm not sure if I have the courage to start rock climbing all over again from zero strength and catch my "Waking Dreams" at Tioman...
It's sad to know that my dreams is being taken off again and at the same time, I thank the creator for being mercy to me for lighting up my passion again, though the flame may not last long...
Hmm.... At this moment, I just hope that I can do another 2 more multipitches practice with them. By the time I come back from my Open Water, we are ready to ascend the Bukit Takun. And I can rest my mind and prepare for my Colorado trip...
Thank you for reading, if there's any.
Timz
