Well... It's been some time... Life has been busy with everything... Anxiety, Climbing, Work, Business... etc... Just everything to make things short... Well, Guess that's life...
Recently, I'm back with insomnia and migraine... Crap, wose case scenario... Haha... Well, I've gone through worse... Not sure what causes this... But I have my way to do with my insomnia... Though I still can't sleep well, but I learnt to relax by spending 30min to an hour of personal time with my guitar... Trying to play some old songs and learning some new songs... singing to myself...
Hmm... just about a month back, I had a sudden urge of doing something which I believe i am talented in, but I haven't do for a real long time... Drawing and painting... It's not out of nowhere I suddenly wanted to draw and paint... It was to make a very special Birthday Card for someone special to me... Though I may not be very special to her... Haha...
It started when I was walking around in POPULAR Book store... And I saw some colour card... I bought a variety of them in different color and thickness... And I got myself a few different grade pencils, a pack of watercolors, some brushes, and a book of artblock... So, I went home and begin scratching.. scrapping... scratching... and scrapping.... It used to be so easy, so friendly... But it felt like a stranger to me now... Well, after weeks passes, and the birthday card plus comic was finally being presented to my dream girl on Thursday night... And I ordered a bouquet of roses to be sent to her office on Friday too...
Friday came and I called her... She was out from the office before my roses arrives.. Shit... And Saturday, she head North for her sisters' graduation with her family, Sunday was the actual graduation day and her birthday. So, she and her family extended the weekend and had a trip to Cameron and finaly back on Monday late evening... Well, I suspect the roses would be dead by the time she sees it. Or maybe the cleaner should have relocate it into a rubbish bin for attracting ants and produces odor... Too many question in my mind...
On Saturday evening as I was attempting to meet her at Kampar... And on my way, suddenly something told me to stop... Because I might be doing too much and it may scare her... So, I u turned and went home... However, I managed to call her and wished her Happy Birthday and got to know that she have yet to open the Birthday card... well, maybe it's not that special to her afterall, or there might be tonnes of idiots like me doing the same thing...
Somehow, I had a chat with one of my very close friend... She asked to meet up before she deliver her second baby which was scheduled to be on 10ish of September. But I couldn't make it on Saturday itself.
Sunday was a working day for me... It was an extremely hot day. Well, no messages, no reply, and not answering calls. Maybe I scared her or something. Work dismissed earlier than scheduled, so I called my friend for a dinner. And yeah, we went out for wantan mee and tongsui. Had a great dinner with lotsa laughter talking about the old days...
Monday came... was still worried if the roses survived the hot weekend. But there's nothing I can do. As usual, started my day with a morning wish to her... And didn't expect much. But instead of a reply from her, I received a message from my close friend. She delivered a baby boy... And both are safe... What a WOW on a Monday morning... The baby wanted to see the world 3 weeks ahead and it just came out. Look, Saturday, she wanted to meet up for a dinner and say let's meet up before the delivery but I couldn't make it. And Sunday we met up for a dinner and all of a sudden, Baby boy came out on Monday...
What a week to start with... Guess best things in life happen when u least expect them... And I think I should expect too much sometimes and just do what I've gotta do.... And let fate destine my journey...
Not sure if this will help in my migraine and insomnia... But it will at least, I guess it will loose some tense in my already saturated brain...
Have a nice day everyone. Thanks for reading though there might not be any... :-)
Tim
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